Our ultimate goal is to become successful no matter what trade we are in. It seems it is just inbuilt in us. I admit that this is the force behind a lot of advancement in human history. Yet the hard lesson is, to me, trusting God for failures.
I am not a loser, but far from possessing successful stories. I know from my mother's eyes, and from other people's eyes that I do not have everything altogether there. I am definitely not contented with my life.
But I open my eyes realllll big, to see which part of plan I fall in in God's eyes.
I do not know how to live apart from other people's expectation. If you could live without caring about what others thinking about you, good for you. I could not. I just learn not to live solely on other's expectations.
Meanwhile, trust God for His goodness in the midst of an ordinary life.
Did God put down 40 over chapters in Job for us to learn how to endure suffering, or God is teaching us how to trust Him in suffering. There is a difference there, isn't it?
Nope, I am not in any form of suffering, though inevitably I am not heard many times.
So I start to make myself visible, sometimes, it is just not pleasing in some people's eyes. I do care about it, but it doesn't mean now that I will hide my true self because of it. To step out of the corner, that is the simplest thing I need to do long time ago.
When the world start to press in on me, making me feel as if i am the less privillege, lacking stablitiy in all aspects of my life, I step out of my life, looking at myself beyond constraint of time and space. I know, deep down inside, I am doing well...I have not been robbed of the joy to trust...
I may have doubts in people, circumstance, or future. But I have no doubt in this: He was, He is and He will always be, from everlasting to everlasting.
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